.voice test. in which Cas asks The Ultimate Question of Life, The Universe, and Everything

[trenchcoat]

What does it all mean?

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[hasperkynipples]

You start askin' that, you're only going to wind up with a headache. Trust me.

ahem

[trenchcoat]

[already there dean, he's already there.

cas sighs through his nose, pinching it.]

I believe I am starting to understand why you [pauses very briefly. he was going to leave it at 'you', but thinks better of it.] humans [emphasis on the 'humans', yup, he was generalizing all along] constantly feel the need to distract yourselves with things of a more...fatuous nature.

[hasperkynipples]

Or maybe we just don't care.

[trenchcoat]

[oh dean, you and your flippant self. by now cas is also starting to understand that he should not take everything you say so seriously.

...but then this is cas.

he give a brief non-committal 'hmm'.]

That may be so, but what I don't understand is why. [cas is frowning to himself. ] And why hasn't any of it mattered until now?

[hasperkynipples]

To me or to you?

[trenchcoat]

[cas is quiet for a while. it could just be his usual way of avoiding the question, and in which case dean shouldn't expect a reply...]

Perhaps it's best if you forget I said anything.

[or he could actually be giving it some thought.]

[hasperkynipples]

[normally Dean would be all for this, but sometimes Dean could actually be a human being. He sighs heavily.]

No. What is it?

[trenchcoat]

[no, look see, now he's made dean feel uncomfortable or 'put-upon'. can't be having that.]

It's nothing.

[hasperkynipples]

Cas.

[in that commanding, big brother 'spit it out' tone that he uses with Sam all the time.]

[trenchcoat]

[OKAY FINE but only because you've worn him down what with the voice and the face and the- gdit dean.

he sighs in defeat.]

It's you, Dean. [not just you-you, he means you-human-you (but mostly you), but cas is the king of awkward, so yeah.]

Ever since I gripped you tight and raised you from perdition all I've done is question everything. [and that's somehow annoying to castiel, because things were much simpler back then.]

[hasperkynipples]

I think that's a good thing. People shouldn't always just tow the company line.

[even though that's what he did with his dad for years, but shhhh that's totally different.]

[trenchcoat]

But it goes against everything I am.

[hasperkynipples]

Cas, if you don't trust something, then you have the right to say so.